Exhale

you see negativity
unwarranted
gloom and doom
a spewing forth
of pain for
pain's sake
a bitterness
uncalled for
setting upon any
and everything
in such a
venomous way
it must be
silenced
by hiding it away
i comprehend
and take no offense
but let the
record show
my rants aren't
pointless
what it
really is
my friend
is exasperation
and a refusal to
pretend
the stressful
culmination of
life crashing
down
doesn't get to
me
and for awhile
the enlightened
smiles
cease to be
tolerated as
band aids
the witness of
humanity's
morality
vanishing
strikes me in a
myriad of
ways
and sometimes
when the light
strikes right
and the bell
tolls
it all bubbles
over
a bit out of
control
and i can't quiet
the irritations
whether universal
or those of my own
and while i don't
intend to
rain on other's
parade
sometimes
those pollyanna
status quos
just
don't
fit
some days
the dark that
dwells within
rears its
ugly head
and bucks around
more than a little
bit
because i'm not
the darling
all the time
there are days
when
i come undone
there are moments
when
life for me isn't
fun
and there are
opportunities when
there's nothing
nice to say
but i can't stand by
saying nothing
at all
i'm human
what can i say
it's one of my
flaws
so call it what
you must
i know you mean
no disrespect
but please...
the next time
you want to call it
please...
call it
direct

4/2009/7 - M. Michelle